Engaged and Underaged???

So I realized I have trouble starting a conversation even in blogsphere. A friend of mine told me not to worry about my audience and just to start writing. I must be really insecure that I'm worried how I'l come off to my current readers (ie 0 to date). Perhaps I'm too obsessed with trying to gain listeners and just use this space to vent like I had originally intended. But where to start? I just watched part of a show on MTV called "Engaged and Underaged." The couple this reality show was covering were 21. I called my husband and told him about this. He was like why are they underaged? We got married at 19 and 20 respectively. I had twins by the time I was 21... that is married with 2 kids by the time I was 21. Often my husband and I (usually when we feel overwhelmed) ask if we made a mistake getting married so young and haveing kids so young. But at the time all I wanted was to be with my husband and the only thing that would make me happy and give me the abillity to move forward with my life was to be with him. Did I get pregnant too early? Perhaps, but I wasn't planning on the whole twin thing at the time. With just one baby I could have continued on with school or gotten a job and not have been as scared out of my mind to leave just 1 baby with a babysitter. But the birth of my twins has taught me so many life lessons and has probably been the most challenging thing in my life. I've also greated some great connections and good relationships with people because of their existance. Do I miss sleeping in.. yes. Do I miss walking around indulging in my wonderlust w/o a care of when I need to get home... yes. But as that same wise friend (see above) has said, haveing limits makes us moral. Haveing children in my life keeps me inline and gives me a great reason to get out of bed in the morning. Yes it's hard.. really really hard. I tell people when they ask how hard haveing twins is that I cried every day for the first 6 months, and now I don't cry as often. But life is hard for everyone. We all need to work hard for or on something. This is my lot. If it wasn't them it probably would have been something else than.. and I'm glad it was them.

Hello...

This is my chance to put thougths and words out there in this cyberspace where someone may read it. I think at this point I'm probably just talking to myself. This is not a new phenomenon. I'm a middle child and talking to myself is a birthright. Often I'll be up at night thinking of something that seems so profound at 3 am or chewing over an argument and want a place to talk through my side of an argument and get a fresh perspective. I thought I could use a place to write it down, spell it out and if anyone does read it I'd love to get feed back. Topics may include politics, being a modern female or just abstract ideas about humanity and relationships. So Hello All! Is anyone out there?